Induction

I began my official induction as a watcher last night. This is what it feels like: dizziness, anger, being hypnotised, agitation, doubt, and an upset stomach. I also feel like I can’t do my daily activities unless it’s essential, like eating.

I thought I’d be wrong to write this up. Karu said there’s a lot to tell me, probably about the realm. And my husband has been steering clear of me for most nights, but he never told me why–this I had to figure out myself.

It’s taken three years for me to get to this point of official induction. I think I’ve been avoiding it unknowingly. My last duty of this process was to confirm my identity. When I woke up today, I checked Facebook. There’s been backlash over football jerseys relating to LGBT inclusivity, and someone posted that children should be shielded from this kind of ideology.

I made a whole post on why this was wrong, and in it, I confirmed my identity as genderqueer. I am a mix of woman and nonbinary every single day of the year (it never changes between! I mean I feel both at the same time!), and my pronouns are she/her.

Someone (I think it was Tan France) once said that the term “coming out” is based on fear, and that’s why he didn’t like it. I feel I’m in the same mind, as I feel no one should fear confirming their identity. It is for your happiness.